I’ve decided to do this everyday for the month of November. It was random, I thought I should keep track of it to see how far I’ve come from the start of this month.
I’ll be looking at a couple of things this month, mostly my projects, my health, my screen time, personal development and future planning. This month is crucial as a lot of deadlines are coming in, for the Paradox website, for the course projects, and the programming exams. I will be doing the usual No Shave challenge, along with abstaining to work on some aspects of my physical and mental health.
My eyes are showing progress in terms of looking sunken and dark. I shall use at-least two methods daily at different times to fix this problem. The progress I made in terms of body weight because of the efforts I made in the last few months, I’ve prepared a good base to go a little more extensive this month. Aim is to reach 100 reps per exercise, with only 2 min breaks in between each set.
In terms of the course and project work, I’ll probably try to finish by 15 as most of the work is supposed to get over by then.
It’s going to be rough, with so many changes happening so quickly, it’s going to be a challenge to keep up.
Hoping for the best.
Towards the end of the day, I was able to achieve quite some things, major decisions were made. I enjoyed some time at the roof today in the evening with the birds, mataji feeds them twice everyday, and they seem to recognise us now. The crows and pigeons are a little less scared of approaching around us, especially when we are pouring them their feast.
Though, as I approached dinner time, I saw her sitting on the chair in the Puja room with her japamala. It just struck me that our time is just so futile, the life itself is so futile. Yet, some of us just waste it away, trading every moment away for materialism.
This thought made me question my own self, my impact on the world. Perhaps I am wasting myself away too. Everyone dies, and our decisions obviously impact the future. The water we save today, can and will get wasted tomorrow. It’s all inevitable.
One should work on finding a spiritual haven with the paramtatva, and I too shall seek some answers, mostly of the questions I don’t know exist.